This morning I woke up with a strange taste in my mouth…after we had our traditional hot chocolate yesterday night after the Holy Mess…Well, if I have to tell the truth...I didn’t participate to the Holy mess…I wasn’t motivate to it…so I just had a solitary walk…in the empty village!What’s Christmas today for me?? Well…almost nothing…I didn’t fell it at all…it came but I wasn’t here…I don’t know where I’m…just wishing to be somewhere else….Yes… I really am thinking about my life, my stay here, my identity… I don’t know anymore where I’m going , what I want….I was hoping to have any answer by the Holy Jesus…but…it’s just an utopia… Well, maybe I still didn’t open the right packet…the treasure search organized by my two sister can have caused a lost of the essential present…I’m having one more look today…before our lunch…Maybe there will be a letter with some advices….
“yes, you are right, it’s time for you to live, to go abroad, somewhere and to change your job, your life, leave the place where you’ve lived since now, leave the people ( a few) you love, go and re-born to the life!Here you have no more interests, no more aims to reach, no more energy to receive and to give”
Or, he could tell me…..
“well, just consider all you have, you’ve got a job, maybe it’s not the best one, your bosses are not the best in the world, they cause you a closure to the world, they want you just to work and not to have any other thing to do, but you have to find the way to change it, to keep you friendships alive, your needs to go and meet people where they are, to give your joy…”
Well…I really don’t know…I’m going to have a second look for the present…and in case…I’ll ask to my two sisters when they’ll come for lunch…In case, I’ll post some jobs request on internet search-engines, maybe about jobs in EU….or…well….look for the box before….By the way…here’s the menu for today…if you want to join us.
Mix of hams and salami
Salmon’s Sandwiches
Chicken’s salad
Tajarin (sort of spaghetti made by hand at home) with meet sauce and fresh cream
Tajarin with butter and parmigiano cheese
Fish with vegetables ( potatoes and carrots or green salad)
Meet with vegetables ( potatoes and carrots or green salad)
Panettone (typical Italian cake for Christmas) with crème chantilly Nuts and torrone
Coffee
Have a nice Christmas
